This is me...
Soaking in a tub and trying to get my shit together.
Trying to zone out and forget the deep and intense flurries of anxiety and depression that have been plaguing me for the last two years..
2017.
My year of change.
My year of intention.
My year of self discovery.
My year of intimacy.
My year of honesty.
My year of....life.
Do you ever have those crazy little moments of reality? You know..those moments when you suddenly realize that you are a live person living in a real live world?
I had one of those today.
A moment that made me realize that one day I'm going to die. Maybe not today or tomorrow or the next day..but some day I will in fact die. I'm no longer invincible. So I need to stop fucking around and do something great with myself before it's too late!
I'm thirty years old and have not ever really felt alive. My life has been one big beautiful chaotic and unorganized mess. That's the reality. I'm a mess.
I think its time to start creating again.
I feel this blog could be a good start.
Accountability.
This blog is now my accountability.
-FE
